Some reflections on what my Lecturer.

today, I realised that I am a critic. i am sceptical and my agreeable level is below average. When someone gives a point i usually think over them before allowing my ears to continue to absorb the information. My clinical lecturer made me so pissed because all the things she said were making me feel angry.

"All of you must know that the course you have taken is different from other courses. Take for example, engineering. The robot broke down will you be sued by court? In nursing, if you give the wrong medicine and the patient die, will you get sued?"She lectured. I mean like what about our nicoll highway engineer? engineering isn't just about robots! She isn't judging things fairly. That engineer is in great trouble is also because of neglience. My god! Who says designing is save from any court case? What if he draws a picture that others percieved as racism, an insult? I mean this also implies to country-relations.

What else? Ah something said about drawing a garfield in to a smurf will create laughter but what about big fans of garfield (like me!) and smurfs? This is where the conflict theory of sociology come in. *sigh* Yes i agree with her that nursing is a very delicate job as what she had said, 1 silly mistake can cost a life. No mistake allowance at all! What can i do, i have the passion for seeing people recover, haha. When people recover their face brightens up and gives you the only smile in his face after his discharge.

Here are a few things i found in the net that look cool!

Shocked? These things are supposed to be motivating you but alas... I totally agree with this. haha. Only if you are the ones that dream and make no effort to do something about it.


This one is so true, procastination refers to me. I will never be movtivated to study only if the exams are 3 days away.Sad but true, i've always wanted to be someone who don't procastinate. But nevertheless, me is me, this is my unique personality. I even wanted to write a book for procastinators haha since there are so many books on study guidiance which practically don't work on people like me.

Cool stuff! these things are called demovtivators. Well i've finished my essay, but my friend jane says my language doesn't have the flow. My god! I became flabbergasted, i mean like i know my use of language isn't good but this statement sure motivated me to read more books in the holidays to come. *sob*. I feel that I have been lagging behind these days on my language. Whats more i only excel in science and maths during my secondary school days so dun bully me on literary stuff. I won't be able to get what you mean most of the time.

Language is so useful nowadays and the worse of all i sucked at it. Don't let me get started on my second language. Nature has showed me a path of excellence in a career of science orientated. Textbooks quoted "Nursing is a form of science" but i still feel that nursing is so language orientated as for communication and the appropriate use of words is equally important.

As all of you have noticed, i have very shallow interest. Now that i have an interest in another type of music. Top 40 pop songs: Maroon 5, Avril lavigne... I do know this interest will last less than 3 months. But the advantage for such a personality is I can change my interest according to yours if i see the need. The disadvantage is that i get influence easily! That sucks!

Arghh... Not 1200 words yet.

I am crying my ass out just for this essay. I rewrite my essay on communication on paper twice and another time on MSword here are a list of things that kept hesitating me to write more.

1. The use of narrative phrases. I am so used to using all the narrative sacarstic phases to add colour to my essay but what am I trying to fool? This is a argumentative essay. narrative phases are out of the question.
2. Thinking of the question which is so narrow makes me narrow my use of ideas. like "how can communication help create a strong relationship?" this type of questions are so narrow that you are left with only afew words to write. I think the person that wrote that question is a narrow-minded person.
3. Thinking about the narrow-minded lecturer that is so petty! This cannot, that cannot. You can write nothing but crap in your essay. To think she was the one who failed my practical test.
4. Books had nothing to write about my topic.
5. call me dumb but i can write better if referencing wasn't included in the essay requirement
6. I love being different and following rule on the format of writing is so difficult for me. It's against my free will
7. What's more? 6 reasons is enough to piss you off!

You can't believe how i manage to write until 1100 words. It was pure sweat and blood. Ok i agree, i am abit whiny today but you can't blame me as i am having a hard day. My pain, my anguish, my fustration and my disappointment on this puke-worthy essay.

First of all, ah-hem... My earhole on the left ear that was pireced last 4 week was gone to waste!! It heal back only a few hours of studless life. the stud came off in the night and that was like a few hours. Guess what i did? I used my pirecing stud to poke the skin so that i could get my hole back(ouch) . *sigh* Another 4 weeks to suffer.

That pain wasn't as painful as a skeletal muscle pain. I don't mean one spot but various spots including my backside, my detoid muscle, my tigh and so on... All i did today was to act like a restricted toy robot. Squating was a great challange to me. Talking about this pain it was all because i kept playing badminton from 10.30am to 2pm. and that's not all! from 7.30to 9.00 that's like how many hours? 5 hours of badminton.

My type of badminton issit just a "statue" game but running back and forth. And there's this idiot that tortured me. He shot a V-shape trick and made me ran from point A to B. And what's worse, he even made me run back and forth. imagine!!!My legs were like beancurd! Ok, me the useless idiot. I just knew that i could not smack! I am too good of a person, i DUN KNOW HOW TO DO A SMACK! So i practiced with my cousins in the evening the ways of smacking a shuttlecock.

So problem 2 is activity intolerance. third is Diarrhoea! Mom gave me eat a few Seedless and skinless grapes and i had stomach aches. Imagine muscle ache adding to stomach ache. That's like "ouch" to you but to me is "Wah piang! Jin Tia ah!" Hard day isn't it?

Here some pics to share to all of ya.

Ignore the date. Let me introduce, This is my hamster bui bui. ain't he cute? It took me various effort to get him to sit still like this.

OR Else....

He would be stuggling like this. It really made me mad. But How can i show my anger to such an adorable thing, that won't bite and lets you touch him for the sake of his fur.

Try touching this animal below!

This is boss kuala from melbourne, australia. doesn't he look like someone that is about to fire anyone that crosses his line. So, don't irritate this guy!

My name? more than just equality.

My father named me as my first name. means been graceful and means to even up. I find that my name is very meaningful. It is so typical for parents to give their daughter's name that means either intelligence and beauty. I feel so unique in the sense that my name doesn't under any of these catergory. The word has a direct translation being even. But i find that what my father wants me to be is to be less one-sided and quick to judge. On the other hand, my life is not too bad nor too good.

I found out my usual test results would point the B grade. And i had an A for my bio pract and a B for my bio theory. I am such a B product. Although I felt regretful but still the other side of me was saying that B is enough. Because if the next time i take another of these tests and if (touchwood!) i get a D my heart would be devastated. Having high standands isn't good in my opinon, it adds another stress factor to you. No one wants to have such unnecessary stress during their study period.

Therefore my name is so meaningful, even effects of good and bad of life.

Some cool photos to show all of ya!


Cute cousin hehe... Giving us a kissing look. I ask him to wear a skirt just for show and he did it! haha!!!

Learning to dance like a girl. haha. Needs practice though. Hey, dun say i bully him ok! He's doing it at his free will.



Stunning evening skies! the colour of my favourite blue, though it wasn't taken very well.

PS: I need help, do any of you know where is the best place to store pictures and have unlimited bandwidth so that i can directly link it!

A sudden flip from happy week to stress week

Just thinking about my sweet week I had, i could remember the times i slack at home with no worry flies pestering me. Now, work started piling up on me from months ago. I am so glad i had my weekend worthy. Shopping with my mom is cooler than with anybody else

1. A great decisive source
2. She knows what you want
3. She's got the $$

Too bad, good times never last long. Last but not least, today i am too tired to blog so please pardon me for this short entry

Common Loophole Words Said By People

As mentioned before in the last post, not everything people say is totally agreeable. We must be sceptical! Such as "Money is not always everything". This, of course is explain in the last entry.
Phrases like "life is short, so why not enjoy first", I will only apply to unhealthy food, gambling and all the stuff that can have negative effects in life. Let me explain why this is a total crap using the unhealthy food example. Nothing is unhealthy until you lose you control on. A buffet offer of $4 per person. Anyone would be tempted to eat it almost every meal. Someone at the side would be saying, "Hey, why hesitate? life is short, so why not enjoy first." So you will regret in the end because you are sure to suffer than live a quality life, always geting insulin jabs or if you get renal failure, erm.. It's better die than live as you are always stuck to a dialysis machine or the stupid plain type of diet. AND I REALLY MEAN TASTELESS FOOD. I am bound to cry my ass out! you can't even eat something as simple as rice. The keyword here is "suffering", a word worse than "Death".

Hooray! My 2nd brother bought me The Sims 2 original as my late birthday present, what a nice brother I have. He's always willing to do such priceless sacrfices to his sister. Awww... I am so touched. No words can describe a unique person like him. Gotta try my new game now! tata! Jealous?