Do I really sucked at obtaining money in life?

How come people like my elder brother get money so easily? Is it his luck? According to the god of luck(GOL), it seems that he happens to be striking rich...

Yup, still creating a name for my religion, gosh. Can't think of it yet. I need inspirations INSPIRATIONS. I need an advisor,Oh I forgot... I am the only member, how sad. I must also create the 10 dominations of my XXX religion.

1. luck never takes place when you don't work hard
2. only you can make a miracle, GOL just forsees it
3. GOL alters the levels of luck, but not giving anyone more or less.
4. Increasing chances increases the levels of luck
5. Everyone must learn to be aggressive when dealing with opportunities.
6. Everyone is created by playing a game of luck
7. Although there can't be any scientific explaination for this but whether good or bad, god of luck will balance you life.

3 more. I can write my own bible already. It can also be call the Book of truth.

FAQs

What the hack does this GOL do?
To clear up confusions, A god is someone (in our XXXreligion's context) that is powerfull enough to alter you luck levels. A god is someone you can look up to when you are having problems or when you are really happy (estatic to be exact).

What is "luck levels"?
Adapted from taoism's yin and yang theories. Luck levels determine the good and bad luck you are going to have sometimes bad luck goes way down till nobody can recognises and it can even cause death. But luck levels can go up very high too till you can slack at home without doing hard work. There's a rule that says, high luck levels are very temporary and rare. GOL hopes everyone treasures it's golden moments.

If only people believe in the GOL, then i can built a Buff (somekind of a woshipping place), and there the people would explain to GOL why they deserve some good luck.Cool right?

Arggh... Another allergic reaction

My life sucks, I wonder why my friend wants to be me.It's the First time I ever heard anyone say a thing like this to me. Shucks. I can name you over a 100 different disadvantages to be a person like me. I just get a few today because I dun have a mood to do anything.

1. I have a very bad case of food allergy. Have anyone thought of a life being so restricted to certain food. Solely no shellfish; prawns, crabs, etc. Squids too And some fish too. Think about the time when you were enjoying your chili crab and itchness start to engulf your senses.
2. Seafood is another thing, what about peanuts, walnuts. I get a hoarse throat and swollen lips for that. I think doubly twice before biting on offered chocolate from my friends.
3. The weather plays an important part for the integrity of my skin. I get a rash when it's hot and humid.
4. Dadless, what a life? No fun can be carried out fully without him.
5. non-charismatic person. Nobody like a person like me. I really feel like Snape from Harry potter.
6. The only thing that can counter an allergic reaction is to eat anti-histamines. Yah, they work but I feel so weak and pathetic all the time. Sad life.
7. BGR-virgin. Explains everything
8. Unapproachable, shy and skeptical person. I know I am really discouraging people to like a person like me.
9. Follows people.
10. gullible.

That's enough for you to hate me in a second. Now you know why people hate me so much.

I really wanna get involve in something. I wished someone will enlighten me. I used to be in a group of good people and another time with a group of sarcastic people. If, and I say if I ever get a sponsorship this time (please god of luck...), I will do the following things before I forget:

1. Get my hair dyed
2. Join a society (not a secret society of course)
3. Thinking ar... Get a new friend from the net (optional)
4. Treat my parent to somewhere fun
5. A new clarinet (most likely a wooden one)
6. sign my bro up for guitar courses(he really need someone to teach him properly)
7. A Cantonese CD-Rom.
8. Lastly find a guy friend that is not a wimp and an empty vessel.

More to be added next time. Hopefully this would be my movtivation to get through the interviewers impressed.

You must be wondering where the hell the God of luck came from. Oh I made it up.. It's a new religion of mine. Haven't thought of the name for it but you could read my entry about this religion
I went to a Japanese site in search for pictures on Howl's moving castle. To my amazement, the English used was such a horrid. I find difficulty understanding the message the person was putting across. I am glad I am native to the English language or else I wouldn't had passed my 'O' levels.

I truly a very bad person when it comes to languages just take for example my Chinese. It's was what I learned from young and I am totally useless when a person conducts a lesson in mandarin. I can never take a dialect easy, all mixed up and I speak by stuttering.

Can you ever fell in love with a fictional character? Sounds ridiculous but writers with this ability can move on to the next step of having his/her book best selling. Those who have read harry potter books, well I once liked cedric diggory alot. Simply because he is both handsome and composed. Howl in that movie was also one of my favourites.

I stupidly went back to the dreaded school to have look. And do missed the times in the classroom and my great form teacher who got me out of 'O'levels alive. It was really hard on her to have got student that defied her so many times. It even got the principal's attention which made her life damn stressful. I fully understand her plight. Nevertheless, she made herself one of my favourite teachers ever.

Howl's moving castle, 10/10

Yup, no other animation can beat it. Equally romantic and hilarious. Pretty enjoyable and never boring. Impressed me lots. I even showed a friend of mine who is totally skeptical about animations. Never believed animations as a movie but a child's play.

At the beginning of the movie, she sarcastically said, " Oh... I am watching cartoon..."
After that, she was impressed. Cartoons can't make senery real and lively... Oh yes it can, if you had great imaginations.

To think another friend of mine is also anti-jap. No anime, nothing about jap. But still she is unaware the cultures she does are Japanese originated. Sad. Why are people so like anti-animation? anti-Cartoons? Simply because they want to break free from the grudges of their parents. Independency, cartoons are related to childhood. They connect these together, although they are 2 different things.

I have a little child inside me, I argue and throw tantrum. Wants parents to be with me all the time. Hate making decisions. I dun want to lead, but love to follow. Leading outlines many consequences. Following take no responsiblities.

Spoiler!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Howl the wizard is sucha handsome lad. Flushed with virginity and innocence. The artists is so good at this. The good thing about animation is that, you no need an audition to find a handsome lad. You just have to create one. Many people can't see it.
Spoiler ends!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Haiz, last night I dream of my dad's last moments. I kissed him on the cheek (just like the movie), and wisphered, " Dad, I love you". Then he was caught up with a RTA which.. wasn't how he died by.

Got to go study.

Sighzz... Grief and loss.

Some may have never experienced a total loss which is very similar to losing 1 arm and 1 leg. A distant loss has really no effect on me, for example the loss of my grandad 10 years ago when I was only 7 years.

When I saw my mother crying, I innocently ask why is she crying for my grandad. I did not know anything about dying. She replied to me saying that he will never never come back alive to smile and share experiences with you. I knew i was still confused, why not come back?

To think I have such ilogical thinking. The loss of my dad was a very huge impact for me. I totally understand why Everyone cries and sobs at a wake. It's because when ever you think about what the person did to you and he will never ever be doing it again.

Losing your parents are the most devastating to a person simply because you will only have 1 mother and 1 father in your entire life. Once lost, nothing can replace them. I feel sorry for those who are ophans and have never experience family love before.

As blood bonds, you will never lose them as much as friends do. Please note that evil parents are not taken into account for example, gambling dads and selfish moms. Even you lost a friend (may it b a mutual or relationship), there is still a cushion to bounce back on.

ALWAYS TREASURE YOUR PARENTS, eventhough they scold or throw you out of the house they are still your parents who are concerned about your safety. Don't forget they brought you up to who you are today.

My effort all wasted.

I feel cheated, used and gullible. I shouldn't have felt pity on anyone simply because someone take her joy and happiness for granted. This I really feel extremely stupid for the past 10 years of my life. Such lessons had told me off over and over again not to help other people, be more strong willed and I persist. Why am I such an ass? Once again, I must kick myself a few times to remind myself.

Little does that person knows, I woke up early all for that particular person, however, she see it as a negative side of life. Even a crappy man knows that I am doing this out of concern. I want to retire from life that are infested with self-centred people. If only there would be a spray that would disinfect such failures of society. *sobs pitifully*

I shouldn't be so soft hearted, i must let these people know what is it like to be taken for granted. I can't accept the fact that I am used for over 10 years. Have I told you about the diarrhoea I had?

Oh yes! It gave me so much trauma. I will never and I say never eat food cooked from anyone else's house again. It didn't went right after experiencing a bad diarrhoea on the bus back home:

I was scanning my EZ-link card when the card reader alarmed loudly at my face, I quickly whispered, " fuck this card! threre's no money in it" I searched my OP bag quickily for small change and there simply nothing left to save me. So I have to thicken my skin and stride towards the back of the bus, acting blur I didn't know a thing.

There was a sudden acute pain on my abdominal, I cried loudly in my brain, " shucks that unhygienic food i ate today" All i did was to curse the person who cooked it. I kept having cold sweat. Once i reached the gates of heaven, the toilet. I found out instantly... No toilet paper!!!!

Instantly the word " gauze" brought up. I dug for the pieces of gauze that was unused during my dressing. Dun you say the gauze can clog tiolet cuz i have totally no choice. This is what happens when the cleaners dun provide the paper for me, serve them right.

See. After going through all these ordeals, i hope that person feel gratituted to have me. but... NO!!!

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I can't believe i had a crush on someone that i hated today, but to think back, i like him because he was approachable. Sadly i am blinded by jealousy. I have to let go of my horrible feelings before judging a person.