Thursday, March 17, 2005

Sighzz...

I can die waiting for the hospitals to reply to me. They truely love to keep me in the dark all this time. I send to 3 hospitals and the output is at ZERO!!! Arghhhh!!! Singapore hospitals have no manners, indicating a no is so difficult. 23cents to sent to my noble address that's all.

Is that so difficult? Leaving people in suspense is not a right thing to do, man!!! Won't you think they are a bit stupid to do this? What if i spam them, maybe they didn't recieve my mail... Ah there is a catch!!!

If only the director of NHG is my dad, then they will know what it's like to be kept in the dark. I will ask my dad to make them be on provation for the entire 3 weeks with no rthyme or reason. If my mom was the director of Singhealth, I am going to make the HR people have a thorough education in choosing students. Especially, when they are too blinded by beauty and eloquence.

Fuck one leh, slackers also they select (moments of utter singlish)... This world is too blind! Then send them application don't want to say yes or no... Fuck them la. I am through with these people who don't put me into consideration. Does it harm to conduct an interview? Or is it hard to send a word "no" to my mail?

*Bawls loudly*, Life stinks painfully. Is my life that difficult? I don't care man!! Spam them! I want them to know keeping people in the dark is not a good thing to do.

My friend really need ME to teach her to overcome a loss. I think her loss can't be compared to mine! Sucide had never pass through my thoughts ever when I had this impact. That's why my friend labelled me as a very strong person.

Experiencing a loss like mine isn't easy to overcome, when someone that is only had that status in your lifetime is really painful. You can have many boyfriends/girlfriends but you can only have one Dad/mom that have the same thing runing in your blood. The status dad/mom can't be changed! But boyfriends/girlfriends are totally exceptional.

Someone who experience a loss of a mutual relationship will be hard at first but it's very easy to overcome unlike statuses that only exist once in your lifetime.

Thinking of the past won't do you much good but even more harm, leave
everything distressing aside and look forward to what's ahead of you.
Achieve all your aspiration and dreams. Everything is possible if you put in
the effort into trying.

That was what I told myself 2 years ago. Crying isn't stopable I know but the person inside must free the distressing emotion. Sad things are everywhere, simply reminders of the past. Just that last week, you did what with so and so are agents of depression.

My friends want to obtain a masters for nursing which I can't stop to say "next time". All I want in life is a stable job and a good husband (isn't that what any girl wants?). I feel that working makes me an adult. Studying is really hard for me when it comes to memorising. Plus the competition in school.

I don't want to compare with others, they can look down on me for all i care for I rule my future and most importantly my happiness. I see a few strands of slivery hair growing out from my head. And that no. will increase even more as the years go by.

I don't know why my friend hate my group mate. I know they are slackers but that doesn't give you the reason to hate them. I used to be aloned and people hate me, that feeling is horrible, terrible and vegetable.

They did nothing to me, so I have no hard feelings.

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Grr... Those jerks!

I am actually using this word on my classmates a few years ago. I like my friends in polyl, they give me the identity. Unlike people in my dark days who simply just call me, "gen bi chong" (following bug). Damn that girl, she'll know what's it like to offend a person like me.
GOL grants me the power to make them have a bad ending when they offend me. Ya, many of my offenders got bad outcomes.

Whenever I notice that, I can laugh hysterically. No evil thoughts though. I can cry and laugh without you knowing it. hiak hiak... A still remember a girl who made fun of me all the time, Bah... She didn't even have a good time, serve her right.

No one can compare a support system to mine. Unlike those jerks in sec school, mine is more matured and less being embarrassing. I can never stand beside them in public, they make a hell lot of noise. Immatured freaks, call themselves girls. Failures in the society more like it.

I have many enquries about this guy I liked in sec school, I think he really got into the wrong company. English-speaking person. Hah! My mom always wanted someone who is purely english-speaking. I can grab anyone out of the shelf and be my friend. All I wanna know where in the world is he...

My life in school dreadly sucked, I can't wait to graduate from suck a darken school.

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Rules for my laptop!

  • *From now on, Acer Aspire 1691WLMi will never go to any unacceptable sites and get programes that are not very trusted. Anything untrustable shall not be to be installed/ downloaded in it inclusive of pirated ware, shareware and freeware.

  • Alowed games in Acer Aspire 1691 WLMi; full version of warcraft 3, (to be added with serious consideration)

  • Allowed Shareware; none!

  • Allowed freeware; acehtml 5 freeware, spybot search and destroy, hello, msn

  • Allowed XXX ware; windows 2000 office, photoshop CS

  • Anything downloaded externally would only include files from/for friends(very closed ones), family and the school. No relatives.

  • Acer Aspire 1691 WLMi shall have strict rules regarding downloading, which definitely include directX controls.

That help me to get my com out of trouble. My precious shall never be harm by spybots, adware, and pirated ware which has a history of slowing down my precious com!!! Only used pirated ware by other coms is allowed.

Sad thing is my com is a bit screwy however I must prevent anything that screws up my computer.

Today i did something really bad! I scolded someone infront of his face. Oh what the heck? He doesn't even know I cursed him. That old classmate of mine was really shock to hear me scold him, well he doesn't know what a person I am.

I can't stand anyone that hurts my support group. They will have bad endings. Especially my dad, a solid support group of mine I can't lose but GOL has to do this to me anyway. So I curse the surgeon til hell for what he did to my dad, and the collegues, boss of his old company. Curse them for weakening my support system.

Today an old man wants to try and attack my support member. I felt really angry and curse him, "If you don't pass my friend, you shall lose all your hair!" Fortunately, she passed. So He did not lose any hair. I give blessed him with extra bits to cover his baldness.

I really think he hated my personality. Being Crude and heart-breaking. If I knew how to talk, I would be a marketing agent. Earning lots! Gosh! Some people just doesn't see the meaning of life. It's not how to speak but how you have a solid rice bowl for years.

Saturday, March 12, 2005

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Chinese always protrays itself liked a chore not a subject. I wish the education system make chinese almost the same par as english.

OMG! MY VERY FIRST LAYOUT!

After browsing the book: Cascading style sheets; the definitive guilde, i roughly know how do CSS work. It's so cool! Web designing used to be my hobby but when work piles up... I simply do not have the time to practice my HTML skills.

I really feel like a geek, man. Cool isn't it? I must give credit to Anime Inn for providing me with the picture or else I can start up with nothing. And of course the person who created the movie, "The Cat Returns". Sheesh, it took me 3 hours to get everything nice and well. May I ask those who are using firefox and netscape whether there is a big problem or not?

I hate recieving errors. I get mad!!! And the... It's ok. This was something to cheer me up. I didn't do very well for yesterday's bio prac, I did silly mistakes. I bet I got an average B. Life stinks, all I get is negative results. Why my friend so tyco?

Luck simply isn't on my side. This layout may seem like a final piece but it isn't. I stopped because i was feeling really tired of codes.